Thursday, June 28, 2007

Brenda's Guest Book entries Day 1

Guest Book for

Brenda Ilgenfritz Miyamasu



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June 28, 2007
Our thoughts and prayers go out to Myles and Family.
Brenda captured the hearts of so many who met her. She always had a smile and an encouraging word when we needed it most.
Steve & Denise Bartlett (Copperas Cove, TX)

June 28, 2007
Brenda was truly a great person and we are deeply saddened to hear of her passing. Heaven just received another angel. To the family, our thoughts and prayers are with you as you go through this difficult time.
Larry, Lisa, Patrick, Samuel and Hans Phelps (Fort Hood, TX)
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June 28, 2007
My deepest sympathies for the loss of Brenda. I will always remember her as one our soldiers' biggest cheerleaders and proudest Army wives. She loved spreading joy and warmth and had a gift for doing just that...and had a lot of fun doing it - an inspiration for us all!
Jaci Ollivant (Harker Heights, TX)

June 28, 2007
Many condolences from me and my family. We love Brenda very much and will miss her smile and laughter. The family, you and her will be in our prayers. She was a very Great women.
James Sansonetti (Killeen, TX)
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June 28, 2007
Brenda's friends and spiritual family from St. Christopher's Episcopal Church in Killeen, Texas are deeply saddened at the world's loss of such a vibrant and loving woman.
Charlene Smith (Killeen, TX)
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June 28, 2007
On behalf of the Fleming Family, we are very sorry for your loss.
Joseph Fleming (Woodbridge, VA)

June 28, 2007
We always had the best hair didn't we? I will miss your smile, laughter, eating the extras and loving it.This dealership will never be the same with out your red head...
Sam Green (Manassas, VA)

June 28, 2007
Your legacy of caring for others will live on through all those whose lives you touched. You once told me that a friend is someone who lifts you up more than they drag you down. You were the ultimate friend.
I love you!
Dawn Sansonetti (Killeen, TX)
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June 28, 2007
May your hearts soon be filled with wonderful memories of joyful times together as you celebrate a life well-lived.
david&susie alami (woodbridge, VA)
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June 28, 2007
When I think of Brenda, I will always remember her with laughter. We shared so much together, and she always put a smile on my face.
Carol Frennier (El Paso, TX)
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http://www.legacy.com/PotomacNews/Obituaries.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonId=89794452


Brenda Ilgenfritz Miyamasu
Brenda Ilgenfritz Miyamasu passed away unexpectedly on Saturday, June 23, 2007, at the young age of 43. Brenda was born in York, Pa., the daughter of the late Edward and Anne Ilgenfritz, and was a 1981 graduate of Spring Grove High School. After graduation from Shippensburg University with a computer science degree, Brenda's fulfilling life as an Army wife of 21 years included living in Germany, Kansas, Texas and Virginia. Brenda immersed herself in raising her children, thrived on opportunities to work with Army family members and co-workers who were all a joyful part of her life, and loved her Barry Manilow music. Brenda is survived by her husband, Myles M. Miyamasu; and her three wonderful children, Katherine, Courtney and Daniel; her brothers, Kenneth, Gary and Steve Wagner; six nieces; and five nephews. Visitation will be held on Thursday, June 28, 2007, from 7 to 9 p.m. at Mullins & Thompson Funeral Service, Stafford Chapel, and the funeral service will be held on Friday, June 29, 2007, at 2 p.m. at the Quantico Base Chapel with Chaplain (LTC) Matthew Goff officiating. The Miyamasu's request that in lieu of flowers, contributions in Brenda's memory be made to the Susan G. Komen Foundation or the Wounded Warrior Program. Sign the guestbook at PotomacNews.com. ManassasJM.com,
Published in the Potomac News and Manassas Journal Messenger on 6/28/2007.
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He was just walking down our street

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Another sad day.......

Another day gone by.
Jeff called from the airport today. He's on his way to Qatar and he called back to his unit to let them know that he's still stuck there and he was given the Red Cross message about his Aunt Brenda passing. Evidently they didn't give the last name and he wasn't tracking. He was shocked when I told him who it was. I told him that he and Brenda were my only two friends who didn't quit on me when I left David....and that he needed to be careful because I couldn't lose my other friend.


The would should be totally stopping everywhere to notice that this wonderful person is no longer with us. It just seems that no one cares. And I know that's the way it is with all deaths....those who are affected by it want the world to stop....and those who aren't affected by it......well....they aren't. It makes sense, but it still hurts.
After the last few days of being on the phone with people from everywhere between Afghanistan, Hawaii, and The Pentagon I really needed to get out of the house today.
I walked around Hobby Lobby...bought nothing. Then Target...bought nothing there either. Then I went to Hastings to check out the knitting books. I knew they didn't have anything that I wanted.....but I just couldn't come home yet. I did find an interesting one on the history of the art of knitting on the clearance rack so I got that.
When I finally did come home I only felt worse. I have spent the last few days just wanting to curl up in my chair and cry and knit.....and that's pretty much what I've done. Jim has been wonderful......he's been trying to comfort me as best as he could....but I just wanted to be left alone with my yarn and my tears.
Then today things totally changed. I wanted to be out of the house....no matter where I went...just OUT. Then when I came home all I wanted was his arms around me. I told him that on the phone and he said that he wished he could be there to do that. He had to go to H&R Block about an IRS letter that we got and then he'd be home. I told him I was going to be in bed laying down. He came home, changed clothes and said that he was going to go in and 'stink up the bathroom' and then call his best friend in Maryland. I was so hurt. I just wanted him to hold me. I dozed in a out and he woke me up at 7:30 when he called Bill (he came home at 5:30) talking really loud. Then he went outside to talk. I got up and came in and just sat. Then Christopher and Sarah came over and he came in with us to talk. I could tell he'd had more than a couple of drinks....he was getting loud and chatty. I was trying to explain something and he interrupted for the umpteenth time and said "Let me interject something...." and I said that I'd rather he didn't. And that was the last I saw of him.

Here's what was emailed out about Brenda.

Sent: Mon, 25 Jun 2007 9:12 pm
Subject: Services for Brenda Miyamasu - please disseminate

Thursday, 28 June 2007, Viewing
1900-2100
(7:00-9:00pm)

Mullins and Thompson Funeral Home
186 Shelton Shop Road
Stafford, VA 22554
(540)659-7690

Friday, 29 June 2007, Funeral
1400-1500
(2:00-3:00pm)

Marine Memorial Chapel
Quantico Marine Corps Base
Quantico, VA

Take exit 150 (Triangle/Quantico) off of I-95 and turn towards Quantico Marine Corps Base. Adults must have a valid, government issued, photo i.d. (passport, drivers' license....) and proof of vehicle insurance to enter the base. Inform the gate guard that you are attending a funeral service for Brenda Miyamasu at the main chapel.

A map showing the location of the Marine Memorial Chapel can be found at: http://www.quantico.usmc.mil/activities/display.aspx?PID=1682&Section=BASEINFO

Approach the main gate on Joplin Road, which will become Fuller Road after you pass through the main gate. At the end of Fuller Road, turn right on Barnett Avenue. Barnett becomes Russell Road, stay to the right as you approach the traffic circle; the chapel will be on your right. Parking is located beyond the chapel.

Memorials
Flowers are great, but two causes that Brenda truly supported are breast cancer research and caring for our wounded soldiers. If you would like to continue her efforts, you may send donations in honor of Brenda to:

Susan G. Komen for the Cure Foundation
http://cms.komen.org/komen/Donations/WaystoDonate/index.htm?ssSourceNodeId=101&ssSourceSiteId=Komen

Wounded Warrior Project
https://www.woundedwarriorproject.org/index.php?option=com_wrapper&Itemid=247

Sunday, June 24, 2007

WHY????????


Someone beautiful and wonderful has left this earth. My beloved friend, Brenda Miyamasu, passed away. Our mutual friend, Carol, called me and let me know. I have no details and know nothing except my only true friend in this world is gone. I loved her so much. She never judged me, always was there, and although our contact was sparse we thought of each other often. She was a beautiful person, married to a wonderful man who is the epitome of integrity, and they had 3 beautiful children. The world is truly all that much poorer for her leaving. But, she left a legacy of love and friendship that will never be forgotten.
Brenda, I love you!!!!

Friday, June 22, 2007

I WON!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA!!!! I WON!!!!!
I was able to do a registry tweak and make it so that I can send 1MP pics! SO THERE
, CINGULAR!!!!!!!


Stupid Cingular...AT&T....WHATEVER!!!!

I posted those picks of the Unholy Mess that I ended up with because of a mistake 12(!) rows down. I tore out the section and was able to fix it. I took pics with my phone while I was doing it and the resolution was set to some ungodly small number like 25x25 (JK) But it was the smallest resolution on my phone. When I checked the pics here on the blog they are TERRIBLE!!!! So I put the setting back up to 1megapixel. Ever time I try to send a pic with that setting I get an error message saying that the pic is larger than the settings allow and that I need to go in and change the settings. OK, I finally looked up how to do that and set it to "original resolution" and thought I would be all set. I *STILL* got the error message. So I did some more digging and Cingular/AT&T limits the size of the MMS to 300K.....a 1MP pic is 360K! GRRRRRRRRR! Stupid Cingular. Stupid them for making/marketing a phone that boasts 1MP and then they don't let you send those pics thru their network! GRRRRRRRR!

Multimedia message

All Fixed!!!

Multimedia message

And it's getting worse instead of better

One Unholy Freakin Mess!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Blah.....

Another Blah Day where all I want to do is crawl into my comfy chair and knit. Lately, I feel almost obsessed with knitting. Like I can get away from the whole world when I'm knitting. I'm trying to figure out if it's just my obsessive nature that once I find a craft I jump into it 5000%...and then some. Or if it's more than that. Like just wanting to get away from the world because of depression.
Things are going as well as expected with Jim and I. Which means that I'm madly in love with him and he totally loves me and we are devoted to each other. BUT, we communicate in such different ways and show our feelings in such different ways that we find ourselves hurting one another unintentionally.....and sometimes intentionally. We each have our buttons from our pasts that we are learning to deal with. By 'deal with' I mean learning what the other person's buttons are and avoid pushing them AND learning WHY a certain thing is a button and trying to 'disconnect' the emotion to that button so that it's no longer an issue. These are things that we are working on hard and strong, but sometimes I feel like there's never going to be a time where I feel normal, loved, needed, cared for, appreciated, etc etc. And I am all those things with Jim....but a lot of the times I just can't feel it. And the same goes for him. And that's where are problems lie. How to NOT push each other's hurt buttons....and how to show the other person how much we love them. And conversely, how to realize that the button being pushed is usually a flashback to an OLD hurt....that the other person is not hurting us right now, but rather, we are immediately taken back to the time where we were hurt all the time by the people who claimed to love us. Also, we are learning to see the things that the other person is doing as a loving gesture and not take it the wrong way...and being sure to notice and appreciate what they are doing for us.
Anyway.
I still feel like crawling into my chair and just knitting until my arm hurts so badly I can't even move it anymore.
I feel overwhelmed by everything and just want to hide. The kitchen is torn apart in a massive way. All the cupboards are emptied onto the counters and we are rearranging things and spraying for ants and cockroaches (from that darned recliner I bought him!). We are pretty sure that the cockroaches are all gone, but you can't be too aggressive when trying to get rid of them.
Having all that stuff laying around just gets me in a overwhelmed funk. I can't function because I don't know what to do next so I just want to retreat and hide from it. I can't start to put all the things back until Jim puts the last shelf up....which he will hopefully do this weekend.
We bought all the stuff to make Points Friendly foods for the week...or two. But we can't cook because there is no room to prepare anything. Back to the overwhelmed funk. So I've eaten everything in sight.....which means I have failed miserably at trying to go back on Weight Watchers. And that just adds to the funk in a worse way. ie, In for a penny, in for a pound.
So, I'm trying to slowly work on stuff around the house and get it in order. I am REALLY hoping that I will not feel the need to hide once the house is clean again. I've been doing some cleaning and then start to get overwhelmed and sit and knit for a while. Then clean some more....then knit. I am slowly getting things done and I'm hopeing that it's just the 'house is a mess' funk and not worse depression.

Back to cleaning.....I blogged this time instead of knitting.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

More knitting......of course!

The house is in shambles...I mean so bad that if we were in an accident and the police came here they'd think we'd been burglarized and ransacked!!!!! We have all of the cupboards emptied and the new (to us) base cabinets in the garage. I really can't start putting things away until Jim gets the last shelf up and we are still toying with how we want that.
Sooooooo, seeing as though I can't put the stuff away, I guess I'll just have to knit!!!!! LOL!
And, of course, having one project going at a time would be too smart, so I've got 3 afghans going now!!!!! I have the "Shower Of Love" one that I ended up frogging back to the border and then putting on hold until the wedding was over. I've been working on that one and it's going much better now that I've had more knitting experience. I've even learned ow to do the cables without a cable needle and that helps it go a little faster. It's lacy with lots of cables, so it's one that I really need to pay attention to when I'm working on it.


Then there's the blue "Lot's Of Love" afghan that's beyond easy. I take that one with me and will knit on it while I'm waiting in line etc. It's a total no brainer and pretty hard to screw up.



The last one is "Exquisite" from a Leisure Arts book. I've always loved Aran knitting and this is a gorgeous afghan. Right now it's not really showing it's beauty yet, but it will once I get further along.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!


It was a very nice, quiet Father's Day here. We went and got a free china cabinet and futon from Craig's List and then just chilled out. Jim watched TV, napped, and played on the computer most all of the day. He putzed in the garage some and got the shelves cleaned off so that I can put in the white shelves tomorrow.
I have been toying with knitting skater stuff for the baby. I experimented today with stitches and the Volcom emblem. I tried to get the aspect ratio right in the cross stitch graphing program, but I guess it didn't work how I thought it would. I got to learn how to read a graph for knitting.....ICK!!!!!! IT SUCKS!!!! Just give me good old fashioned INSTRUCTIONS!!!!!
Here's what I ended up with. I will have to toy with it some more.