Frankie is never coming back....

I've cried and bawled for days. I miss him more than anything in the world. Part of my heart is now gone with him.


I was trying to explain to Jim what he meant to me. How I've always had cats all my life but NEVER have I had a cat like Frankie. When I was upset he was ALWAYS there. NO MATTER WHAT!!!!! He would wake me up in the middle of the night by touching his nose to my face and he would keep doing it until I woke up and put my around around him so he could curl up in the circle of my arm and rest his chin on my arm.


As I was explaining this to Jim I was trying to tell him Frankie was always there for me. I told him that he was.............so caring...........he was.................and "LIKE AN ANGEL" just popped into my head in a weird way. Like I was told it.....but no one said it.....I'm not hearing voices or anything like that. But it just came from...............well, not my brain.
I don't even remember if I told Jim he was like an angel. But I do remember thinking ......"All I know is that I just want him to come home" And exactly the same way, "He's needed elsewhere now" just popped into my head.


So what the heck is this??????? I don't presume to think that God speaks to me personally. Nor do I hear voices. But this came from somewhere. Half of me believes that it did come from and angel sent to comfort me.........and the other half believes that it's just my subconscious coming up with it to make myself feel better.





Oh....and then there's the dream. I dreamt.........no I ***EXPERIENNCED*** Frankie being there last night. That darned Topamax causes very vivid dreams,so this is nothing new.
But he was there and I was petting him.
And he was gone when I woke up so I asked Jim and he said that he's been gone over a week. And the same way that the other words came into my head it was "Now you've had one last night with him"
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