Saturday, January 27, 2007

WOOOHOOOO!!!! A HOT TUB!!!!


Jim, Jeff, and Richard went over to JR's house to pick up the hot tub. I guess we have to replace the heater in it......but you can't beat that with a HUGE stick!!!! UNFORTUNATELY, we have to wire 220v out back before we can do anything. I would LOVE to be soaking in that tonight.

On a more sobering note....last night was *ANOTHER* huge blow up with Emily. She has mood swings something fierce and one minute she is wonderful, sweet, funny, and adorable....the next she is cussing and screaming at me/us. Last night was the final straw. I know she's dealing with depression, but she refuses to take anything to help with the mood swings and the anger. I told her that we are all miserable and that she needed to get it treated or that she needs to move up with her dad. I **********HATE********** the thought of her moving up there. He has hurt her so many times and just doesn't care. He will only do for her if it benefits HIM....no matter what he has promised her. But he's really good at playing the "oh my....I didn't realize..." with the puppy-eyes. Hell, he had me sucked in to his bullshit for 20 years. And I ***********STILL************* trusted him throughout the divorce and he screwed me.....and hurt Emily at every turn. I don't want her to go.......but we just can't live like this anymore. She's my baby girl and I know if she goes up there that he will start in on her about how we threw her out......I'm a terrible mother....blah, blah, blah.
I don't want to lose her, but if she stays our relationship will just get worse........I really don't have a choice.....this is HER choice to move up there............and I HATE IT!!

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