Ups and Downs.....

We went to the Noon Mass today as Richard has his Rite Of Sending. All went well and I'm just so proud of him. He's growing up into such a fine young man....although there ARE times I just want to throttle him! LOL!!! He and his dad looked so handsome up at the front of the church.

After church we came home and I started working on the knitting machine....learning how to set it up etc etc. Yes, I knitted Emily's scarf on it, but knitting a SCARF is pretty much idiot proof. No shaping, no increases or decreases......just plain knit. I got it all set up and knit a swatch for the sweater that I'm going to TRY and make tomorrow.
In the meantime, Jim went to the Cursillo meeting. Right, after he got home I asked him to come in the front room so we could talk.
All day long I've been trying to figure out how to not be angry with him. I have to forgive him.....I have to because it's the right thing to do.......because it will ruin our marriage if I don't.....because each Sunday I pray the "Our Father" which says that I need to forgive others as I am forgiven.......and mostly because I love him more than anything in the world. But I don't know how to not be angry and hurt. And the more I thought about it the more I wondered why Richard shouldn't be given another chance with his skateboard too. (And there are a ton of reasons why not....especially given the fact that he TRULY does not feel that Jim should have any authority over him.....that's the biggest thing).
But we were sitting there talking heart to heart......and Richard popped in a couple of times about this or that (and I had told him that he could surf on the web...which STUNNED the living daylights out of him) and then he knocked on the door again and told us that his Grandma June had passed about 20 minutes ago. I had asked Jim if he could call Diana earlier in the day and he did. Then she called him back this evening right after she passed. Jim got on the phone with her and just cried and cried. He really loved June.....she was a sweet woman.
So we spent the evening back and forth on the phone with Tory. Tory wants Richard to go to California with her so we are trying to get all that straight. Tory also wants Jim to go...but we just don't have the money for a ticket.
Tory is going to call back tomorrow with more details and we are going to go from there.
One of the biggest things today was that Tory told me she loved me. She has never said that before........and she doesn't NOT say those words easily!!! I've waited for this day for a long time......I really do love her like a daughter.