Silly Me!!!!!

And here I thought what we discussed and decided upon what what was going to happen. Silly, silly me. When will I ever learn?????? I got an email from Jim this morning stating that he would be coming home around 1300HRS to spend time trying to find financing for the AC unit. Ummmmmmmmmmmm, huh?????????
So I asked him what this was about and he said that he decided to go with the 4 ton. Oh.
Gee.
So I told him that I thought we talked about it the night before and it was decided that we would play along with how the cards were dealt. He said that *I* decided that (which is bullshit!) I suggested it and he said "That sounds like a plan to me." That's verbatim. So when the soldier emailed me I told Jim that they guy had found another bike. At no time did he say that he still wanted to pursue the 4 ton. I knew he did, but we just don't have the money. He called our mortgage company and they are basically going to refinance the house and pay off some bills in the process. Ok....that sounds like a good deal....especially when he told me that they were just going to add it to the end of our loan. Now we find out that they are totally refinancing it and we are definitely going to lose our 6% mortgage rate.
I didn't get upset (at first) about all this. I told him that I understood why he wanted the 4 ton (the 3 ton is just too overloaded for this size house and we will probably be in this same predicament in a few years down the line) But, I was hurt that we had a discussion and made a joint decision and then he just decided to throw all that out the window and ride off on his own. He then said "Well, I decided I wanted to do it this way because I didn't want to end up in the same boat" And AGAIN, I told him that I agree with him on the decision but that it really husts my feelings that I am not included in ANY of the decision making. All that discussion last night was just wasted air. All he would have had to say to me when I told him that the guy wasn't buying the bike was "well, I would still like to roll some things around in my mind" or something like that. Instead, I am under the impression that the decision is made and that's that. Then I a informed otherwise....after the fact. That's my problem. And I still didn't get upset, I kept telling him that he made the right decision but that I wish he would have included me in it. But he kept justifying on why HE should be the one doing this and how "it wasn't like that in my house when I was growing up." OK, so that one pissed me off and I pulled out my ID card and asked him if he saw his mother's name on it. Oh.....it's not there?????? Then I guess we should be talking about OUR marriage.
I am very hurt and angry about this. He keeps saying that why doesn't everything I decide have to be wrong. And I keep telling him that I support his decision....just not the way he made it. But he's not hearing that.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!